Friday 200309..
As for today practice, Zali told me to come early and yes I did but when I reach 704, all of them weren’t there. So I waste my time going to 7 eleven buying water and also chocolates. I bought three chocolates for myself and a bottle of winter melon tea. So then after buying all those stuff, went back to 704 and this time round they reach at last. Shake hands with them as usual. Then sit at one corner eating my chocolates and also drinking my winter melon tea. So did Zali, he sit next to me and have a chat. Asking me if I eat already or not and what so ever. He then told me that we were hungry and I offer him a bite of chocolate and he rejects it. Then he told me that he was thirsty and I offer him a drink and this time round he didn’t reject it. Since he was hungry and wanted a fast food, told him to buy a burger as Mac Donald is just nearby. He gets his wallet and uses his cap and asks me to accompany him to Mac and yes, I did accompany him. Zali told everyone that we are going to Mac and everyone especially Teddy said“Going to Mac or going somewhere else?”
we just hacked care and went straight to Mac Donald.
After that, we headed back to 704 and in the middle of the traffic, he suddenly put his hand on my shoulder and pushes me to move forward and I was like “wait is this for real or just a dream?” He didn’t dare to bite or even kiss me but he did dare to so called hug me. I was shock at the moment but at the same time I felt really happy and I just don’t even know why. After all not all guys show that they do care towards their friends. As we were reaching 704, he asks for a bite of chocolates and I feed him. It was sweet after all. As we reach 704, we sit next to each other and finish our own food and then start practicing. Before we did start practicing, he told me to imagine that my hand is full with chilli sauce and he will bite my hand and it going to be delicious for sure and i said that he didn’t even bite me how does he knows that it is delicious. Sometimes Zali jokes are funny and sometimes it is lame though.
After all those chit-chatting, we begin to practice. We keep practicing the same thing and I started to get bored. So I sit at one corner, eating chocolates again. As usual, Zali never fails to impress me with all his moves. I was like watching a movie sitting at one corner eating chocolates and snacks and being impress with all his unexpected moves. As practice strting to get so boring, everyone starting to sit at one corner doing their own stuff except for Zali,Teddy,Wira and Faz whom keep practicing to break. Speaking about breaking, Zali did ask me if I wanted to learn how to break. I do want to learn how to break but the thing is that I’m not that confidence. I know that you have asks me this before but I’m just not too confidence to be a B-girl. I do want to be a B-girl but iI just need some time as I don’t really like the way Ninie reacts while practicing because I’m sure she going to let out a big and loud laugh.
The reason why I’ve been acting like an emo kid is actually because of Ninie. She let my self –esteem down and also she make me so small until I’m afraid to show the real me to you guys. Actually, I myself don’t even want to be such an emo. I hate emo so much but to certain people emo reflect me so much but actually I just hate to be such an emo. Although emo do reflect me most of the time but actually being so emo is not my real personality. All i need is just one person like you to teach me and help me to get out of the shell that I’m stuck in it. Although we just get to know each other, to me it’s like we have know each other for years. I really hope that our friendship will last long.
Although I have these feelings that tell me that Ninie and also Faz know about us, I just hacked care because all those feelings and the words that I used are true and I really hope that there is such word as US in the world. I really hope that we could still keep in touch although someone or something out there is stopping us. Why should be bother about them when actually it is our friendship and not theirs? Although we barely talk during practice, meeting you in each practice is a great enough but if we really do talk a lot it would be much better. I know that you to want to have a long and great chat with me but time and also certain people are not letting us to have such a long and great talk. I know that there’s a lots more to talk about together but why aren’t we talking when we meet? I know that every song they play to, you going to do some moves that will never fails to impress me.
I love the way you rock your life, the way you dance and the way you live your life. It’s like so different from all those people that I knew. You are like the one that I want to be with for always and also the one that I always wanted to have. You did say before that you wanted to be the one that I wanted to be with and I still hope that you still want to be the one that I want to be with a now, I really need someone like you or even a clown or a joker like you o be with me as I’m indeed stressful and depressed as you seem to be the one that I really wanted to be as you reflect the person that I want to be with. I really hope that one day you will be that person hopefully not one day hopefully now then.
