Supp Readers.. Guess what? Today I will be receiving my result and also 22 Beatz Squad will be going for the Battle dance audition. Wish damn luck..
So today came to school and totally can't wait to receive my result. I now that I did badly. There is always a next time.
Over all I did pass with 3 Us. I failed Math, Combine Humanities & Combine Science. I just hate all this 3 subject. Like WTH, I still have to pass them..
After June or should I say Summer Holidays are over, I'm soo gonna put my head into all those damn textbooks.. I just can't stand studying anymore.. Argh.. Save me someone..
Next Congrats to 22 Beatz for making to the finals for the competition.. I hope you guys win something in that competition..
To Muzy: Like you said: "We enter to the finals, Hoo! The finals will held at dxo club. Sadly 18 and above je leh tgk n tickets are sold at $18."
Since only 18 and above are allowed to watch, why do you even tell me the price of the tickets..? I don't mind if i won't be able to watch you guys perform. It's not a big deal anyway. Argh ..
Damn.. Exams are over and I'm still feeling god damn stressful.. But why? Just can't find a way to make them dance on 21 June 09!
Ps: Can you stop thinking bout your own event? For once dance 4 my event..
New clans &I love to be wif them..
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Supp Readers..
Lets start the story with someone whom just don't understand me.
We have know each other for like
7 to 8 yrs and we are still having conflict with each other.
People always says that:
"People change & life still have to go on."
If i'm not wrong,
she use to say that line often to me as she do know that
I've been facing lots of problems and always asking me to move on.
If I can move on when people around me change
but why can't she do the same thing.
In fact, I do have some other clans that I wanted to mix around with.
I just want her to get it right.
I don't want to hear things that are not true came out from her mouth.
Like people always said,
she's a drama queen.
I love to be friends with her but the things is,
there's just too much conflict, misunderstanding and
too much listening to her..
One thing that I really hate is that
she's can't take the fact when ever I change.
The changes in me is all that I wanted.
But I just can't take it that when she says,
when I mix around with this girl in school,
I've turn myself into rotten apples..
That girl is not the reason to why I CHANGE!
If other people can take the fact that I've change and they really move on
but why can't you?
Please understand me.
I do need my space and I wanted to be with
the one that don't stop me and can take the fact that I'm changing.
Up next:
New clans which I love
to mix around with..
From left to right:
Fatynn, Hidayah, Nana, ME & Belle
See those people up there..
They are the one who brighten up my day
each and everyday.
Although we just get close with each other
we do understand and knows each other limits.
We can take the fact in each and everyone changes.
So thanx guys for being there for me..
Cnt stp watching it & met this fake girl..
Monday, May 25, 2009
Supp readers.. A picture is a must for every post I guess.. Look at the video below.. I just can't stop watching it.
Fatin you do know what so funny about this vid rite.. The chicken wings hands.. Haha.. Enjoy the vid ppl.. Look closely and you will see the chicken wings hands..
I'm Back
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Supp readers?
haha..
I know that my blog is some how dead..
So now I'm back with stories waiting to be posted..
Exams is over & I know that it is badly done..
For sure I'm gonna be one of the failures..
Shouldn't be so stress after exams but indeed I AM!
Receive few papers back lately & guess what.
I faild just by a few marks.
Damn it!
Enough bout that..
Up next..
22 Beatz Squad
On 17 May 09,
just had dance perfomance at Yuhua CC.
This is how the story goes.
Met Zali around 2 @ Yew Tee & headed to
Jurong East to meet Muzy, Fizah & As.
Met them and headed to IMM.
Suppose to buy green top but ended up
buying grey top..
You can see from the pictures that
the top is really big on me.
We have to be ready by 7 but we reach there around
3 or 4 plus I guess.. So we wasted our time chilling at Mac.
They were enjoying talking and
eating and I was enjoying reading my book and listening to music.
So around 6,
we headed back to Yuhua CC.
We spent half an hour practicing.
Not exactly practicing.
So around 7,
went in to the multi-purpose hall and waited 4 the
Guess of honour and so on..
Blah..Blah..Blah..
Soon it is our turn to perform.
The worse thing is that,
no many people actually clap for us.
So after perfoming,
we begin to take some pictures..
So enjoy those pictures..
Damn! None of us went home with a lucky draw prize.
Power Ranger Pose
Wad a month..
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Oh my.. I hate May so much. Lots of stuff going on. Exams and dance performance.
Yesterday 130509 was having my major paper. MATHEMATICS PAPER 1&2.
And today 140509 was having another major paper. HISTORY
Tomorrow 150509 another paper another subject which I HATE. PHYSICS
Sunday 170509 the dance floor is waiting. Dance performance at Yuhua CC
Monday 180509 another paper another subject which I'm WEAK at. CHEMISTRY
Tuesday 190509 last day of exam and last major paper. Food N Nutrition
Wednesday 200509 the dance floor is waiting. Dance Practice at Yuhua CC
Sunday 240509 bake cake. Mom's BIRTHDAY
Monday 250509 should I bake or not? BUSU a.k.a Farah Liyana Birthday
Wednesday 270509 the dance floor is waiting Dance Practice
Sunday 300509 Bake and the dance floor is waiting. Fizah's birthday & Dance performance
WOW! Lots going on this month. God damn tiring. How I wish I have lots of chocolates right in front of me right now. May I?
A day at woodlands
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Supp Readers.. Lets blog about what happen yesterday 110509
Firstly meet Nana around 3 at Yishun MRT. While waiting for her, saw Belle, Fatynn & Hidayah. Have a little chat with them and then they went off. Suppose to meet Nana at 2:30 but as usual she's late.
After meet her, went to interchange to meet firah. Waited for her like around 15mins I guess. Enough waiting then headed to library. As we were on our way to the lib, met Aswandi along the way. Out of so many people we met him.
Firah have a little chat with him and I'm by the side waiting for them to finish talking. After that went to the lib and damn it was so packed. So we then decided to go Woodlands library instead.
Went there and it is also packed. Luckily there is one spot for us. We studied math for 1-2hrs I guess.
Suddenly there this girl came from no where saying that her friends wanted my number. And I was like WTF! So I just ignore and continue studying. Just got no time to entertain strangers like them.
Enough of studying, we then proceed to Causeway point for a window shopping. When inside this shop which sells a variety of headphones & earpiece. I saw this skull earpiece. God damn it, it was fucking nice and I'm so gonna get it.
After walking, both wanted to waste our money, we decided to watch movies. We buy the 9:25pm movie tickets for 17 again. Since we have like 1-2hrs, we went back home, put our stuff and came back. There's lots more to say but I will I'm lazy to elaborate. Will post some pictures once I get them. I will be off for some time Cause now is the exam period.
Gosh! I should be studying for maths not blogging!
obsessed with you
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I just don't know why I wanted to start off my post with that picture up there. I'm just obsessed with you. Today post? Let's talk about exams. 7 May 09 Thursday, the first exam paper is Malay paper 1 & EBS. I love my Malay compo. I write so well I guess. Let me summarize it for you. Basically my story is about me accidentally drop a glass containing ACID and it drop onto my bestie leg and this cause him not to dance anymore. He hate me a lot till he didn't even want to face me anymore for what i've done. I tried to explain things to him but he just won't listen. End up everyone in the dance crew blame me without knowing the real story. I tried explaining to them but they just won't listen. I end the story by writing this: I'm sorry for what I did. it was an accident after all. No one wants it to happen. I know that this cause you not to dance and I have promise myself not to dance anymore until you are able to dance once again. My Malay compo is kind of sad I guess. I hope the examiner likes it. Next paper is Elements of Business Skills(EBS). First half of the paper was easy and the 2nd half was hell difficult I guess. Whatever came up for EBS, is what that I never learn. the next day, 08 05 09 Friday. English paper 1 & Social studies. My English compo is a disasters. I hate the topics given. I guess this is my worse English compo ever. enough about English, lets talk about social studies. First part of social studies is god damn easy. But when it comes to section B. Here I goes biting nails waiting for answer to drop from the sky. Everything that appear in section B is what firah's learn the day before. What the hell.. Everything that I learn, appear in firah's paper and whatever she learns appear in my paper. Damn it! Upcoming papers: English & Malay Paper 2 (120509) Mathematics Paper 1 & 2 (130509)
Just Another Picture!
Friday, May 8, 2009
Just another picture.
Just another story.
I just don't know what's up with life.
Things just not like how it meant to be.
Things seem to be very difficult.
I know that i need to get over it
I know it wasn't true
but why is it that when i try to sleep my mind just circles back to you
i want to believe that it's gonna be okay
I'm lying to myself because I know its not
i almost forgot
what it was like to see you every practice
knowing that it was just me and you
why did you have to go
i wanna forget about the past and say its okay
but then I'd have to live with that everyday
i would feel so low
so i guess i have to let you go and wait
that's what they say right
if you love something let it free
if it comes back it s meant to be
i guess I'll just know
i look at your pictures and the text message
hoping it will make me feel some what better
but it only makes it worse
i have so much anger that i have to let out
if i don't I'm afraid I'm gonna do something i might regret later
god i hate _ _ _ _ _ _
my eyes start to water and my hands begin to shake
all this pain of waiting is more than i can take.
And as I sit here on earth
Missing the one that are not here
I hope and pray
That you are all fine
But I still wish you were here
One more Monster
One more Clown
One more Jokes
One more Smile
One more time I want to hear
Your voice or your laugh
I sit and think
How much I did wrong
How much time was wasted?
The scream and the anger I have towards you
How much time I lost
With the hard time I gave you or
You gave me
When that time could have been spend
For that one more Monster
one more Clown
one more Laugh
I feel so alone
Because YOU are not here
But I know YOU are in a better place
And I wrong for feeling this way
BUT No one can blame me for that
because All I wanted is
One more Monster
One more Clown
One more Jokes
One more laugh from YOU.
Is the voice really Coming Back?
Monday, May 4, 2009
Each time I receive a call from an unknown number
I hope that it is you.
But the unknown number is not always you.
But I know that every time I wish for your calls
I know that I will get that phone call.
It have been months since we talk.
The cartoon voice.
The monster under my bed.
The clown whom always appear.
Everything gone but only one came back.
The cartoon voice.
I started hearing the cartoon voice once again.
Its not always but at least I get to hear it once again.
Will it stay longer?
Is it just for a while or what?
What about the monster?
The clown?
When are they coming back?
I'm missing the Monster and so do the Clown.
All I ever wanted is for us to be like how we use to be.
Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way
Find comfort with me,
in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait
Laugh with me,
a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness
Cherish with me,
the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be
Find peace with me,
in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled
And when the path comes to an end
I hope we can say from within
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within.
Just A Picture!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
I don't want to repeat the same old stuff again.
Let's get things clear.
I'm just an ordinary girl who love to change into the new her.
She change until she found someone who could stop her and be the real her.
Its you Muhd Ghazali.
The one who appear that helps me to find the real me.
When you appear in my life things goes smoothly.
I found out who the real me is and what I wanted to be.
You whom appear in my life means a lot to me.
You tells me what does the word LIFE really means.
You tell me what to do when I'm depress.
You teach how to be the real me.
You teach me things that I don't even know.
But things are different now.
I used to have a monster under my bed.
I used to have a clown everywhere.
I used to hear a cartoon voice before I went to bed.
But now all of it is gone.
Gone for good or bad.
I don't know where the monster gone to.
I don't know why the clown gone missing.
I don't know why the cartoon voice is fading away.
I don't know why every thing's gone.
I don't know what's happening.
All I wish is for:
1 Monster.
1 Clown.
1 Cartoon voice.
To stay with me like how it use to be.
Now I don't even recognise myself.
I don't even know who am I right now.
I don't even know what makes me to be me anymore.
I don't know what does my life means without having my
Monster
Clown
Cartoon Voice.
Its you Muhd Ghazali.
You are the one who makes me feel me.
You are the one who knows how to make my day when I'm down.
You are the one who help me find the real me.
You are the one who tells me what is right and what is wrong.
But why did you go so sudden?
I still need you.
Can't you explain things?
Can't you talk things out?
You did read my blog and you already know what I wanted to say to you.
But what about you?
Its your turn to make things clear.
I've done with my part.
Stop making things in circles.
Like I said in my previous post.
I don't want when I talk things out I will be the one to get hurt.
Its your part to talk things out now.
So that no one gets hurt.
I'm waiting for the day to come.
Till now waiting for you to say everything.
Presentation day was a pain in the ass!
Friday, May 1, 2009
Fuck! 30 April09 Thursday. The day has come!
Yesterday was the actual presentation day. That day I came to school without having my sleep. I was tired and stress when I reach school.
Reach school and lesson as usual but release early at 11:30. So after recess assemble at hall and practice presentation with my group members. After practicing, my group then present it to Miss Foo as she wanted to hear from us before we actually present it to the judges.
After the presentation, she gives us a negative comment. You know that negative comment don't always sound good. So after hearing to her comments, my team mates still can fool around and I was like the only one being so serious.
I work hard to finish all the boards and the final design but my team mates are just not into it. They don't seem to appreciate my hard work.
So went to Firah and talk to her about it. She the only one who knows how hard I work for the project. I cried after talking to her. Cried as my team mates are not putting their heads in it.
Its like I'm the only one who wanted all this. I know that they are not interested but can't they show their respect towards me? All this while I keep my anger towards them but I work so hard for this and they just don't care about it.
So its time to go to Suntec Convection Hall for the presentation. I was so afraid that I couldn't answer the judges questions. But during the presentation, I tried my best to answer all the questions.
After the presentation, Irzaq blame me for saying the wrong thing. WAIT! Why should you blame me? I did a lot for the project and end up you are blaming me? HELL NO! Stop blaming me. I cried for being so stress about the project, trying to find ways for the answer to the questions the judge may ask.
You guys just don't appreciate it I guess.
I tried to tell you.
"Love What should I say about it?"
Love seek not itself to pleasure, Nor for itself hath any care, But for another gives it ease, And builds a Heaven in hell's despair.
Love looks not with the eyes, But with the mind; And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.
Love is the magician, the enchanter that changes worthless things to joy & makes royal kings and queens of common clay.
"Love is a portion of the soul itself, and it is of the same nature as the celestial breathing of the atmosphere paradise."
That heart has its reason which reasons does not know.
'How should I Say I LOVE YOU to you? I hope you understand how hard and how much the word I LOVE YOU means."
I love you. Those are the words that open my thoughts, my heart, and my soul. Those are the words that fill my head, this book, and the hole That continued to grow with every mistake I made, every person that I lost Left me with a debt that my mind could not pay, so my heart had to pay the cost. Those are the words that are my gift, my nepenthe, and my pain. Those are the words that make me happy, make me crazy, and make me sane.
I love you. Those are the words that open my thoughts to happiness and sorrow. The joy of being with you today and fear of losing you tomorrow. Those are the words that open my heart up to you To show you how I feel about everything you do. Those are the words that open my soul and everything inside. All the feelings that I have and all the pain that I hide.
I love you. Those are the words that is my gift to you from me. To bring you lots of joy and make you very happy. Those are the words that are my nepenthe for past memories They bring my mind to rest and it slowly starts to ease. Those are the words that are my pain that slowly eats away At my mind and soul and makes them start to rot and decay.
I love you. Those are the words that fill my head with happy thoughts of us. All the romantic memories and times of love struck lust. Those are the words that fill this book from the start until the end. It shows in every page, how much I tried to tend. And those are the words that fill the hole.
I love you. Those are the words that make me happy deep within my heart. When you say them to me, my body starts to warm, each and every part. Those are the words that make me crazy when I know not what to think. All my thoughts start to spin and my sound mind starts to sink. Those are the words that make me sane when my thoughts are crystal clear. Now I know what to say as I whisper in your ear, I love you.
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