"Gd nite gorgeous! Swit drimz!"
That was the last text msg I receive from
MR MONSTER
at 060409, 01:34:34 Am
Till then we stopped text each other.
I 'm gonna let you have your space but bear this in mind,
I don't wanna to lose the one that said:
" I wanna be the one that you wanted to be with."
I know that it just doesn't seem tight lately for you
and also for me but I really hope that we could still
keep in touch.
I don't want this friendship or should I say
more than a friendship to stop
along the way just because of Small matters.
This friendship means a lot to me.
But why?
This is so cause,
I've never been as close as
how close am I with you with a guy till
the guy really know and cared a lot towards me,
the guy that really encourage me in everything and also the
guy that who really know how to make my day and to cheer me up.
I hope that you did read my blog.
All those post are really meant for you.
It isn't like I've got nothing to better to do,
The thing is that you are the one who make me want to blog about you.
Everything that is on this blog are posted with a purpose and
not because I feel like to.
I did offer a help but all you said that
I can't help.
But why?
What is your reasons for saying so and why is that so?
Can you please stop hiding things from me and stop talking in circles.
If you really want to know why I cried on that day
and why i don't feel right the day you got for that pit is because
that someone make me feel that she's gonna talk about me or even ask you.
I cried because I can't bear to treated like this.
I've enough.
I just don't like the way you treat me lately.
I know that you have a problem with your
uncle till your uncle throw your phone till
it doesn't really work well.
I do know how you feel.
I know that you are hurt.
Everyone do get hurt but
your hurt is not like how i was hurt.
Mine was worse.
If you notice there's marks everywhere on my hand.
Only people surround me really know about it
and really know how hurt am I.
My life is no like yours.
It's easy for you to say that I have to be
strong and to enjoy life..
But how am I going to enjoy my life when
I'm actually hurt.
So you tell me now.
What do you mean that you are not being you?
I just don't get you.
Why is it that you love to talking circles
so much?
please straight forward to me,
is it hurts or not,
it all depends on what you gonna say.
If it something hurts let me tell you this,
I'm gonna say nothing but OK!
but when I'm back home,
I'm gonna promise you that I'm gonna
break down and it gonna be
my worst day ever.