Warm regards to my readers especially to BANANA or known as Z..
Currently in school and this is what I wrote during PC lesson.
" I'm not really fully recover from my fever.
Schools sucks lately & I don't even know why.
Schools use to be my favorite place but not now.
Schools been like a hell for me ever since I'm sick.
Schools use to be my favorite place but not now.
Schools been like a hell for me ever since I'm sick.
Friends do sucks at times.
Friends that just can't be bothered.
Friends that just can't be bothered.
Friends that criticize you till you are hurt.
Friends that you really need are all gone.
Friends that you really need are all gone.
Friends that you don't need appeared.
Have you ever think of how falling in love came by?
Love may be blind and also hurt at the same time.
Love may come and go just like that.
When you love someone,
When you love someone,
That person will appear in your life and will end up leaving you just like that.
So what's next?
After school?
After friends?
After love?
After love?
NEXT?"
I wrote this long ago and been wanting to post it and yet I forget.
I just miss him badly.
I just miss him badly.
"It's feels so miserable when the one I love is not by my side.
Life is just so different without him after all I was left alone without you.
When they change I said nothing but when I did change everyone spotted it. When I don't have fun during dance practice, people keep saying I'm being such an emo and so one.
Its not that I don't wanna have fun. Its just that it doesn't work for me lately.
Its not that I don't wanna have fun. Its just that it doesn't work for me lately.
I'm just so depressed with everything right now.
Let me get things clear to you Muzy.
I'm someone who is emotional and easily depressed.
I'm stress right now and no one knows how difficult life is to me right now.
I use to have someone to text and to talk with when I'm having problems but now,
It looks like I'm back all alone having no one to talk to except for my note pad.
I've been wasting lots and lots of paper just to pen down all my feelings and whatever I wanted to say to the one who said " I wanna be the guy you wanted to be with."
Muzy, get things clear.
If you don't know anything just act like you don't even know a single thing.
I don't want any misunderstanding to happen among this crew.
I don't want just because of stupid reason, everything will turn out wrong in the end.
Now the crew seem like what only..
Everyone is doing their own stuff.
What's up with crew now?
Some people do know that I'm having a hard time in life.
I've been spending my day in class writing in my note pad instead of listening to teachers.
Nothing much I do nor I learn.
All I did is to write non-stop.
This is what I've been writing for the past few days.
I'm stress right now and no one knows how difficult life is to me right now.
I use to have someone to text and to talk with when I'm having problems but now,
It looks like I'm back all alone having no one to talk to except for my note pad.
I've been wasting lots and lots of paper just to pen down all my feelings and whatever I wanted to say to the one who said " I wanna be the guy you wanted to be with."
Muzy, get things clear.
If you don't know anything just act like you don't even know a single thing.
I don't want any misunderstanding to happen among this crew.
I don't want just because of stupid reason, everything will turn out wrong in the end.
Now the crew seem like what only..
Everyone is doing their own stuff.
What's up with crew now?
Some people do know that I'm having a hard time in life.
I've been spending my day in class writing in my note pad instead of listening to teachers.
Nothing much I do nor I learn.
All I did is to write non-stop.
This is what I've been writing for the past few days.
Monday 20April09
" As I was not in good terms with THEM
You know who I'm referring to right.
As I got no one to talk or turn to right now,
I felt so alone in the dark.
How I wish I have a friend that could talk to me for always
How I wish I could have a friend who could lend me a shoulder when I'm really in need
How I wish that friend is with me, nest to me right now .
How I wish that friend could be Monster known as Banana.
Speaking of Monster or should I say Banana,
I miss seeing him
I miss his cartoon voice
I miss his text message
I just miss him a lot.
How I wish I could have Monster with me
How I wish we will never lost contact
How I wish everything was like before.
May my wish be granted PLEASE.."
Tuesday 22April09
You know who I'm referring to right.
As I got no one to talk or turn to right now,
I felt so alone in the dark.
How I wish I have a friend that could talk to me for always
How I wish I could have a friend who could lend me a shoulder when I'm really in need
How I wish that friend is with me, nest to me right now .
How I wish that friend could be Monster known as Banana.
Speaking of Monster or should I say Banana,
I miss seeing him
I miss his cartoon voice
I miss his text message
I just miss him a lot.
How I wish I could have Monster with me
How I wish we will never lost contact
How I wish everything was like before.
May my wish be granted PLEASE.."
Tuesday 22April09
Last night when I just reach home around 9:30 pm,
And i was resting watching TV
Still in school uniform.
I still remember it was at 9:50pm
When I receive a call from an unknown number.
I know that unknown number will always be Monster.
And guess what?
It is monster.!
Argh..
I was god damn happy to hear his cartoon voice once again.
He ask me if I'm going for dance practice or not.
I said maybe not because I got exams coming & I need time to brush up on everything.
What a waste.
I should be going to practice so that I will get to meet him.
But to bad I can't.
I stayed at home and study instead.
I'm just missing monster and his cartoon voice again!"
There is lots more that I wanted to say.
But this post is long enough.
Read my next post to know more about
What I've wrote in my note pad all this while..
It might be or might not be about you.
And i was resting watching TV
Still in school uniform.
I still remember it was at 9:50pm
When I receive a call from an unknown number.
I know that unknown number will always be Monster.
And guess what?
It is monster.!
Argh..
I was god damn happy to hear his cartoon voice once again.
He ask me if I'm going for dance practice or not.
I said maybe not because I got exams coming & I need time to brush up on everything.
What a waste.
I should be going to practice so that I will get to meet him.
But to bad I can't.
I stayed at home and study instead.
I'm just missing monster and his cartoon voice again!"
There is lots more that I wanted to say.
But this post is long enough.
Read my next post to know more about
What I've wrote in my note pad all this while..
It might be or might not be about you.
