SMALL PEOPLE

It was all happen on Monday midnight.
I was asleep till I heard my sis knocking on the door
And was crying.

I didn't know anything so I decided to continue with my sleep.
Time check like around 10-1030
When mom and elder sis is back .
Both entered my room and was like scolding my 2nd sister.

I was like lost at that moment,
Not knowing anything.
2nd sis then blame me.

All I know is that I texted elder sister saying
" Otw back hm go and take the school pocket money.
No excuses."

I was so tired back then.
Can't she just help?
They were shouting to 2nd sister and bring out the

Old matter again and again.

Then later elder brother came into the picture.
All 3, mom, elder sis and brother
was like scolding 2nd sis and myself.

Saying that they are tired too and
ask me to go and take it instead.
So am I was tired.

2nd sister at a conflict over with grandma,
so she can't go and take it.
Same goes to elder brother.
Elder sis will always give the same old excuse whenever ask
Her to go instead.
Younger sister will always said this and that
And everyone will then ask me.

Look i'm much more tired then they are.
I may look all okay but
What about my inside body.

They are just asking for help and rest.

Do you guys know that?

When i'm sick, you don't really bother about me.
Only 2nd sis is.
You priorities elder sister, brother and younger sister.
Us?
You neglected us.

All the scoldings continue.
2nd sis get a few slaps from brother
and both of us get a few kicks from him also.

But 2nd sis gets the worse.
I wanted to block her but instead she blocked me.
I was worried about her stitches.

No one in the family knows that her stitches bleed before except for me.
Seeing her get beaten up
Makes me feels so hurt.

Mom was there but all she said to brother was
"Dh sudah la tu."
She just said that but she didn't stop him.

I don't know what's going on with this family.

Mom is now on elder sis and brother side.
Where as me and my sister are struggling on our own.
Took the whole night crying and thinking about it.

2nd Sis and myself wasn't treated fairly in this family.

So friends I've been going through so many ups and downs in life lately.
I might be much more sensitive then before.
When you see me down,
Don't ask why.
Its all because of all this.

I thought that 2010,
I could get the fullest encouragement from my family but
It all seem the other way round.
I could dream on getthing an ecouragement and

Family support from them.

Why can't they just understand what I wanna do in life?
What is it so hard to give me your support mom?

To fatynn: it's not a fall mark.
its something else.
something stupid to do.