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Me: B. Where you at?
Him: Hme y?
Me: Tk keluar?
Him: Jap lagy, Knape? where u at?
Him: Hme y?
Me: Tk keluar?
Him: Jap lagy, Knape? where u at?
Me: Hm. U goin for prac?
Him: Yeap, nnt. I igt u klua ke ape. Blh jumpe kat wdlnd.
Me: I won't be goin out THESE FEW DAYS. I hve to finish up my cw...
Him: .....
It then lead to..
Me: Ouh ok, so kirekn u going to spent ur holidays by just goin 4 prac?
Him: Yes I suppose.
Me: N nt going to spent time with me?
Me: N nt going to spent time with me?
Him: Abeh tady u ckp ape? U bnyk cw kn!! Tis few days u tk leh klua!! I was about to ask if u cud go out ke tk bt den u alr ans!! Knape bby suke tuduh I dulu sebelum tanye??
Me: Mane ade tuduh. I was juz asking u. Yes Im going to be busy doing my cw bt then I knw hw am I suppose to manage my time so that Im able to spent time with you. Its nt like everyday I'm doing cw. I only said THESE FEW DAYS.
Him: bt den u ckp ' nt spending time with me' da mcm u tuduh i kn!! dh la b! Im sick n tired of all this!! Dgn fam, dance, U lagy! I feel like ending my life. do u knw tat?
Me: B I tkde niat pn nk tuduh u, dh u nk ckp mcm gitu, ckp la.. I je kn yg salah, u je ug btl. B sendiri ade prob tk nk share. Hw am I goin to be ur listening ear if u dun even wanna share ur prob? Yea u r sick n tired of all this shit.bt y? Bcoz of me.
Him: Suke hati u ar nk pikir ape!
Me: Fine! U dh mls nk layan I kn.
Him: Ikut suke hati b ar.
Me: All this while I tried to understand u, giving u space. Bt tis is wad I get. Thnx. I knw im full of nonsense.
Yet no reply.
Am I really at fault?
I Don't know.
Am I really at fault?
I Don't know.
Later at nite, he called.
I was so mad at him n myself and didn't even want to pick up his calls.
I was so mad at him n myself and didn't even want to pick up his calls.
He then txt me.
Him: B :(
Me: B do u knw u making me feel tat u taking me 4 granted.
Him: B, tat really hurt me. Its like u saying, Im using u.
Me: Why must u always get me wrong? Stp jumping into conclusion will you? I'm not saying u r using me bt taking me 4 granted. Like u r nt being there when I need you and yes, I do regret whenever come to support you. Cause in the end you will act like as if im nt there? Wat do u treat me as? Am I wrong to demand tat? Please B I'm ur gf and nt some street chick. Please..
After which, he didn't reply.
So ya b4 when to bed, I txt him again.
So ya b4 when to bed, I txt him again.
Me: B my words may be harsh. None of us want tl it off. I juz want to spent time wif you. I knw u r busy with dance. All I ever ask is ur time. N nt mre bby. is tat so hard? Pls b, I dun want to live alone. I nid you bt ur time are just for fam and dance. I tried to understand you but I cant. Coz I dun knw wad u r facing now n u want to face it alone. Kte susah same2, senag same2 la. Pls think bout wad I've said and am really ur bby g?
No reply till the nxt day.
Recieve a txt msg frm him ard 545-6pm.
Recieve a txt msg frm him ard 545-6pm.
Him: B, tis is the last time im gnna call u bby. Tis is the last time u gnna recieve msges and calls frm me. I think its better 4 us to split bcoz i cnt be wif u most of the time, be there when u nid me. I knw i've hurt u alot. Bt im sorry. I think its better 4 us to say goodbye. Im sorry. I knw i've hurt u. I knw im a jerk. Thnx 4 being such a wnderful gf all this while bt i'll pray dat u will find a way better bf that is nt a jerk like me. Im happy to have u as my gf. thnx sheeqeen bt i hope we cn still be close frens. Lastly im sorry and move on aites. :(
Readers I'm sorry, cnt move on with the story.
I'm feeling really dwn rite nw.
I hope you guys understand this far.
I'm feeling really dwn rite nw.
I hope you guys understand this far.
And to my "Baby Giant"
A very goodbye and Im gonna miss you.
A very goodbye and Im gonna miss you.
